So I received a rejection letter from Tor, and since it was one of the shittiest in what seems to have been an almost nonstop string of rejections in nearly every element of my life over the last seven months, I took it kind of hard at first.
It’s not that I was naive enough not to expect it and it’s not that I can’t take rejection, but in the context in which it came, well… this was one of a dwindling few things I had left to really hope for. While everything else crumbled I retained the hope that maybe when I got word back on my manuscript it would be the thing to turn it all around. And I was wrong. I figured if nothing else, the statistical likelihood of all this general crappiness has been like flipping a quarter a hundred times and having it come up tails every single time.
Anyway, I was depressed. Even more so than usual. But then I ended up coming up with an entire young adult book series, the first installment of which I hope to have written relatively soon. I won’t get into details, but it’s going to be “Twilight for boys”, basically. Only, y’know, well-written and -thought, with an actual plot. I’ll keep you posted.
It’s weird though because it seems like the shittier my life gets, the more my brain generates these great ideas for books and things. I’m not sure how to feel about that.
Thanks to some guidance and inspiration from friends, I’ve decided to take the John Scalzi approach and release my book online in serialized installments as I make an editing pass through it. (Keep in mind that I still consider it a rough draft, so please leave suggestions (as some of you have already been doing — thanks!). It’s definitely helpful and I’ll be making another editing pass again when I’m done.) I may self-publish on Lulu when I’m done with the next edit but I’m not sure. The publishing market is really weird right now.
A part of me is hoping (though not naively enough that there’s any genuine expectation) that the right person might end up reading the book as I’m serializing it on the site and offer me a book deal. Mostly, though, I just want a lot of people to read it regardless of who they are. But there’s one thing that’s going to have to happen, here, in order to accomplish that: You are going to have to tell your friends.
Look, I’m not doing this for the money. If I were, I wouldn’t even consider putting this up online. I mean, it’d be nice if I could make enough money from it that I could do it exclusively since I have so many ideas that I’m not sure I could really get them all out if they had to constantly compete for time with other activities, especially ones that can take up massive portions of a person’s daily life.
But I write — hell, even this website, which I’ve been maintaining with relative frequency since I started it back in 2002 — because I want to inspire people. I want you to like my ideas and roll them around in your heads and maybe even go on to write or draw or sing or sculpt things of your own, even if only tangentially inspired or related. I want to have an impact on people. And while I really appreciate all the readers I already have, I need more.
If you like my ideas and want me to be able to get even more of them out — all the ones I have in my head — you’re going to have to help me out a little. I figure it’s at least worth the few breaths required to prod your friends into checking out the book. So please, if you like it, spread the word to everyone you know who you think might like it. Blog about it, link to it, Twitter about it, scratch the URL into a bathroom door — whatever you want to do. Just get the word out. (And I’m still working on those marketing opportunities I mentioned before.)
Thanks in advance, and I really do hope you’re enjoying (or will enjoy) reading Machination.
By the way:
 One of very few publishers who accept unsolicited manuscripts. The other of the relatively bigger names in scifi publishing with a similar policy is Baen.
 I’m starting to lose my faith in cliches like “it can’t rain all the time” and “it’s always darkest before the dawn”.
 And not about vampires. It’s really awesome though — promise. For those counting, this means I’m working on at least three books simultaneously (excluding Machination, which I’m just editing). The other two are also awesome, but in different ways. And then there’s this weird experimental project I’m working on that’s sort of House of Leaves meets American Psycho meets Infinite Jest with multi-level footnotes that eventually loop around to reference the original text, but that’s kind of a back-burner thing right now.
 One of whom reminded me that many publishing houses are firing massive amounts of staff and are therefore very probably unwilling to take chances on unknown authors right now. So diverting this into a typical EtJ politics rant, you may have that fuckoid Bush and his “hey, banks, do whatever you want!” policies to thank in part for my novel not getting released. Hooray!
 Though you’re welcome to donate if you’re so inclined — I’ll set up a PayPal button for it. No suggested amount and no obligation, just whatever you think you want to give. And I’ll remember you, and if the book does end up getting published formally at some point I’ll do something special for you.
 I mean, if you’re trapped in a sinking submarine or you have to blow out a candle before it lights the fuse on the TNT in the elaborate trap you’ve been placed in by some kind of spy villain, please use those breaths more wisely.